Right now, I’m in a gray area, between my past life, where I was immersed in US life and my future life, where I’ll be navigating Costa Rica, dealing with culture shock and all that. Where I am right now is a little hard to pinpoint. Mentally, part of me is in Costa Rica already. Living the dream. My body, however, isn’t cooperating. It’s still here, doing stuff that needs to be done.
I noticed it first a few weeks ago, driving through a nice neighborhood. I used to look longingly at places like that, wishing I could afford a ‘nicer’ house. But I had no feelings now – I could look at a nice suburban home, think That’s attractive (but it’s too close to the other houses) and keep going. My perception of what I want my life to be changed, and I’d made the mental move to Costa Rica.
This state of mind creeps in everywhere. Like in the grocery store, where I mentally check off what won’t be available, what I hope will be available, or how much less fresh veggies will cost. Or at Home Depot, where I think 1) tools are something we need to bring down and 2) how I look forward to being able to pay for renovation help. Or driving around and realizing how many new and nearly new cars are around, while there are plenty of old cars on the road in Costa Rica, including my new dream cars, an old Land Rover or Land Cruiser. (I don’t think I’m ever getting that Saab I drooled after in high school…)
This gray area is an interesting place to be. It’s a bit like being a stranger in a land you know well. A sometime participant and active observer. Not that Costa Rica will be completely different – materialism is rampant there as well – but I expect my life to be different. I’d just like to get the waiting over with 🙂